As my mind was wandering this afternoon, lost in La La land once again, I was caught off guard by a question that seemed to come out of nowhere! “What are you obsessed with?” I was struck to the heart by this seemingly simple yet unnerving question. God had my attention.
But of course, God wasn’t going to stop there. No matter how much I stalled or tried to change the subject, He just kept probing deeper and deeper.
“What is it that defines you? What consumes your thoughts, your time? What are you so addicted to that you could never live without or even be parted from for a moment?”
I didn’t want to answer His questions. I tried to fight it or distract Him somehow (as if that is possible), but it was useless. I couldn’t hide any longer.
I realized that I was trying to keep God away so that He wouldn’t see my small idols. The things that I focus on all day long. I understood, then and there, that the reason I didn’t want to talk about it was because I was obsessed with something else other than Him. I was addicted to and completely consumed with another.
I think we all do this so much in our lives that we don’t even realize it. We start to allow other things to creep in and take up our time and consume our thoughts. For some it might be work or sports. Others it could be School or even video games. Whatever it is, we easily allow this new obsession to take over and take the place of our King.
Through all of these questions swimming around in my head, God showed me that I was going about my day so completely focused on what I was doing that I never took the time to find out what He was doing. I had become consumed with myself. My agenda, my thoughts, my feelings.
My hopes, my problems, and my dreams. I had no idea what God had planned. His dreams! His thoughts or feelings about something. What He desired. I was obsessed with myself.
So now I have to pose you this question. What are you obsessed with? What are you addicted to? Inside each of us there is something that takes up our time and our thoughts. Something thatconsumes our hearts. We put all that we have into it and whether we like to admit it or not,it defines who we are.
But what if it doesn’t have to be this way? In the book of John we come across a young woman that was very different than those around her. While everyone was busy with life, work and evenministry, Mary devoted her time and energy to one man, Jesus. She fell at her Saviour’s feet and recognized that it was him alone that mattered. He was the only thing that was worth it. Mary gave all that she had, all of herself, to the Son of God.
This is God’s cry: “I want all of you! All of your heart, mind and soul. I want to be the object of your affection! I want you to be completely and utterly consumed with me! I want you to be soaddicted to me that you could never live without me or be separated from me,even for amoment.I want to be what defines you! I want to be your one obsession!”
The question is: what will be your answer to the cry of God’s heart?
~MacKenzie, a former GOV Intern